You came with your husband yesterday and told me that I was the best friend of your life! You wanted to talk about old times, all we did together, as if everything we did was fantastic and funny. I don’t remember it like that! It was the time when I really needed a best friend. So many things happend and I could not share it with anybody. I was afraid loosing your friendship. You never noticed. Instead you left me alone with my problems and made me even more insecure. You never understood how much you hurt me, when you turned me your back, starting a new life with your still husband!

Listening to you yesterday, 50 years later, you still haven’t. You still think I was the best friend of your life and yes I was! You took my friendship for granted and used it when you needed me.

Noticing when you tell our husbands about me/ us, you were always jealous of my looks and the way I was. Funny, I always found you, the most interesting and talented. I was just so normal! That is probably, why you treated me the way you did and never supported me in my needs! You just did not see them!

We both had a lot of problems at home. Your parents coming from another country/culture after the war. And I never understood, how much you suffered because of that. Me, having an insane and very sick mother and a very kind father, who did not want to realize how sick she was. In a way, we both had the same problem, parents caring more about them self, not realizing what they did to us! Well that is a long time ago and no need to think about any more.

It was so fantastic having you here and both our life’s has turned out to the best. You have your family and I have mine. You live in a complet other way to what I do but we are both safe in our self. At last I have got the explanation that I needed to understand and I can close that part of my life. Thank you my best friend. I still love you.

Ja, damals war ich immer auf die flucht aber das hat sich geändert! Ich habe mein Platz im Leben gefunden und bin dankbar dafür! Ich denke, dass wir viele Prüfungen durchgehen müssen und das wichtigste ist, davon Erfahrungen zu sammeln und nie aufgeben. Negatives in Positives umwandeln, denn ohne alle Erlebnisse wären wir arme Geschöpfe. Lasst nicht das Leben dich formen sondern forme dir dein Leben!